i've decided that car trips with your family should be written up as "cruel and unusual" punishment. ok. that may be a bit harsh, but when there are seven of you and only five of you speak passable english and you HAVE TO touch people for hours and hours and hours at a time and there is NO ESCAPE...it's a bad idea.

really it's not THAT bad, i guess. i was fine until i tried to sleep and then there was much awakening by chinese NOISYNESS; and when i wake up like that i get grumpy. so there i sit trying really hard not to snap at or smack my sisters who are just being themselves--which really aren't all that annoying 'cept when i'm irrationally grumpy--and we're lost in anaheim because my aunt won't(??) follow the stupid GARMON(!). why? i have no idea, so we pull into the DISENYLAND PARKING LOT and ask the stupidly dressed attendents how to get the fuck out and to our hotel.

meh.

then we go out to dinner, which is supposed to be the highlight of the trip for us "kids" because we get to see our ENGLISH-SPEAKING cousin and her boyfriend (who is black and that causes many ruffled feathers in the extended family, but that's not my story so i'm not going to tell it) who is a very nice guy. we three sisters gave him the seal of approval. but the other relatives (the ones we came with and the other two that live in LA) are being so fucking rude to him. acting like he's never eaten chinese food in his life or something. nikki and i are sitting there sending indignant text messages to each other about how embarrassed we are by such treatment.

and i won't go into how i take my upset-ness out on mark who doesn't really deserve it but managed to piss me off and therefore feel my wrath because, while that's my story, it isn't for you.

i miss home. home home. i miss mark, and dad, and my friends. i miss taw who i feel like i neglected while he was home (i think it was mutual neglect, but whatever). i miss candiss who i'm not sure i've spent any time with since her birthday. i miss ali who i was too busy and too worried about keeping mark happy to properly fix up a chance to hang out with. i miss elenita, who i really want to call and talk to in spanish about her silly purple peppers. and just everybody.
but mostly i miss have SPACE and TIME TO MYSELF because i DON'T have any on the damned trip and i can't even call anyone and rant about it because i don't have and PRIVACY to tell them how frustrated i am. grrr.

also...my thumb still hurts. i hope it gets better before yosemite. but i'm glad we decided not to go the emergency room about it. if it's broken, a cast means i can't go swimming at all or anything. if it's not broken then all they can tell me to do is wrap it and medicate. but i'm really tired of not being able to shower properly because i can't use my left fucking hand.

yeah i know. for so much web silence, this is a long post. i'm almost done

song of the day: Key of Life --Nakamaru Yuichi

long live the pretty

"Love you too. Night"

Senior Year.

[x] liked a Boy/Girl.
[x] hugged someone at school.
[x] kissed someone at school.
[ ] gotten a detention.
[x] cried in school. 
[x] liked more than one person. (NOT AT THE SAME TIME!)
[x] ditched/skipped school.
[x] made new friends
[ ] been to a pep rally. 
[ ] got suspended.
[x] watched a football game.
[x] watched a soccer game.
[ ] watched a baseball/softball game.
[ ] watched a volleyball game.
[ ] watched a tennis match.
[ ] watched a basketball game. 
[ ] watched a track meet.
[ ] watched a wrestling match. 
[x] watched a lacrosse game. 
[ ] fought with a teacher. 
[x] got a 100% on a test. 
[ ] walked home from school. 
[x] been driven to school.
[x] got dropped off at school. 
[x] heard a rumor about yourself. 
[x] had something illegal at school. 
[x] missed school when you weren't sick. 
[x] failed a test.
[ ] made up some lame excuse for homework not being done.
[ ] the teacher believed your lame excuse.
[x] you like A teacher you had (Profe rocks!) 
[ ] crushed on a teacher.
[ ] hit on a teacher. 
[x] dislike(i had to correct this...DISLIKED) a teacher. 
[ ] on student council.
[x] in a club. 
[x] got a scholarship. 
[x] got an award.
[ ] fallen asleep in school.
[ ] gotten in trouble for falling asleep in class. 
[ ] had your phone go off in class. 
[ ] had your phone taken away.
[x] lied to a teacher. 
[x] laughed so hard you cried in class. 
[ ] eaten lunch in the bathroom. 
[ ] like your yearbook picture. 
[ ] missed more than one week of school at a time.
[x] enjoyed school.
[x]excited for summer.

During this past school year have you...

Started new friendships?
yes

Played truth or dare?
yes

Been to school?
erm yeah

Gotten yelled at by all your teachers for talking?
yes

Argued with a teacher about a grade?
???no?

Skipped class?
only excused

Had a birthday?
yup

Gone to a new school?
no

Highlighted/ dyed your hair?
not this year

Got in a fight?
not a fisticuffs

Hated someone?
STRONGLY DISLIKED YES...

Who will you miss the most?
candiss and elenita

above is snatched from Christina. who i'll be seeing in less than a month ^_^

a break in the silence

i'm finally posting again. i'm sure you've all been holding your breath in anticipation.

nikki graduated.

i graduated.

mark's graduation party was yesterday. then we went to jennings house but had to leave and go to issac's. jumped on the trampoline. then went to mark's and hot tubbed, talked, etc. overall, yesterday was a lot of fun.

right now, i'm baking beerbread. someone FINALLY had beer at their party that i could take home.

dance in an hour for four hours. blech.

no idea if there are plans afterward or not.

song of the day: Picture Perfect --Monkey Majik

it is may 14th.

all my AP tests are done.

there are 3 more days of school for me.

i'm tired of fighting and crying and such.

i love hana-kimi. the ending makes me think of peach girl, only better. and it also makes me feel some emotion, but i'm not acutally sure which one.

song of the day: I'm Not Your Girl-- Lalaine

there are people i will miss when high school ends.

just finished watching the GHA video.
i miss it.
i miss the people, mostly.
ali, mathias, CORI, beth, shay, alex, lacy, mark, gary, kelydra, alexis, dustin, jesse, TYLER, jorden, kylie, brooke, anna-claire, etc
so many good memories, yo.

song of the day: Country Roads-- John Denver

tonight is senior dinner dance. i'm pumped, kinda.
i really need to actually take pictures tonight.

the play is over. YAY

justin gives good advice, even if i am the female version of himself.

when i cry, i think it's really cute when boys reach out and gently wipe away the tears. way to go, guys.